January inspiration board

January inspiration board

I found this idea on a blog that I love, Wise Craft. She created an inspiration screensaver for this month. I thought it was a great idea, so I did the same for myself. Hers is intended to invoke a feeling more than translate directly to things- the items in mine correlate with things I need to get done this month/am doing this month/ want to focus on.

Would you like to see it? Of course you would!

There’s lots of red for some reason, that wasn’t completely intentional. Perhaps January is a red month for me. I have quilts and foxes to make this month, exercise, reading, and writing to do,  and the Red Hot Chili Peppers to see. (Woohoo!) And a clean house and less volunteering for things I don’t really want to do/don’t have time for , hopefully. :)  And I just love Midnight in Paris and Nicki Minaj right now.

What does January hold for you? Is it red?

Random thoughts / Year in Review

Random thoughts / Year in Review

I love New Years. I love the feeling of a new start, the opportunity to look back over a concrete period of time, and look forward to another.  But I’m feeling oddly reticent to post a “this is what I did this year” post because it feels like boasting or something. I’m also feeling a bit clingy about my uberlist for this coming year. But I think looking back over the year and seeing what you’ve accomplished is a useful thing. And I keep lists of all sorts of things and then look back over them when the year ends. So here goes- don’t judge me.

If you’ve read this blog for a while, you may remember that each year for a while now, instead of creating New Years resolutions, I create a huge to-do list instead. Here’s the list for this last year.  This year I finished 66% of that list, which is 3% up from last year. Woo hoo!

Also this year I:

Did NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) not just once, but twice, because I have insane friends. Both times I completed 50,000 word novels, both of which need a whole ton of editing, but were, overall, good foundations for something.

Made 125 items, including (but not limited to- I can add) 13 quilts, 7 baby quilts, 42 stuffed animals, and 10 scarves.

Read 53 books.

Went to 7 concerts,each fantastic. Some videos, for your entertainment- from the actual shows we attended where possible.

Ozzy Osbourne  I screamed so loud when this song started that I almost broke my voice. His voice has held up amazingly well, and he was completely coherent and intentionally funny.  And he totally sprayed the crowd with a fire hose. It was fantastic.

Erasure  His dancing in this is the best. thing. ever. And no, we were not this close, but we had an amazing view from where we were. And I screamed and jumped up and down almost the entire show, and I’m not really exaggerating about that.

Henry Rollins doing spoken word. (Warning, there’s a couple of cuss words in that video.) I hadn’t heard Rollins do spoken word before this, and I totally fell in love with him. He’s brash and bold, and cusses for dramatic effect, but he comes across as so genuinely goodhearted and interested in people. I wish there was a video of him talking about his trip to N. Korea, it was so fascinating. (This video wasn’t from the show we attended.)

Soundgarden  Goodness sake, his voice is devastating. And we were almost this close this time. This band opened for them, and  was a source of unending amusement (and irritation) because the lead singer could NOT STOP MOVING. He spun, he kicked, he manhandled his mic, he tossed it in the air, caught it, did the splits,- all in a row, while singing. He didn’t stop at all. It was just. so. much. Skip to about 2:15 in the video to watch him interpretive dance. And his band was crowded into this tiny little area, like they were so used to practicing in a garage that they couldn’t spread out. They were like a bad Scott Pilgrim rival band. The comparison between them and Soundgarden was just embarrassing.

Prince This is from an LA show, not the one we went to, but apparently any video taken at the Oakland show has been taken down. But see that arrow part of the front of the stage? That’s where we were sitting. It was ah. mazing.

Imelda May She is so gorgeous, seriously. And her voice is amazing.

We are Augustines  This isn’t usually my kind of music, but Billy McCarthy (the singer) was so completely genuine and raw- it was like he opened up his soul on the stage. (And reading background on the band and the music, that’s kind of what he’s doing.) He completely won me over. (This wasn’t from the show we attended, but I can’t find any video from it.)

Saw Cats. (!!!! Seriously, I’ve wanted to see it since I was 10. )

Started officially homeschooling Z for kindergarten.

Moved.

Enough of that. On to some random thoughts!

Catherynne M Valente: Author of the last 3 books I’ve read (The Orphan’s Tales: In the Night Garden, The Orphan’s Tales: In the Cities of Coin and Spice, This Is My Letter To The World: The Omikuji Project, Cycle One ) , the book I’m currently reading (Myths of Origin: Four Short Novels), and two I read earlier in the year and loved passionately (The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making, and The Girl Who Ruled Fairyland–For a Little While ).  To say I’m addicted would be a bit of an understatement. I love (LOVE!) her writing- her use of language is so skillful- I want to crawl inside the sentences and live in them. Not in the worlds she creates with those sentences (though those too, please), but the sentences themselves.  I mean, just listen:

“Do you know what it means to sing? Are there songs of the spiders, gossamer and glissand? It means to open up your mouth and unstop your chest and push your heart, your blood, your marrow, and your breath our of you like children.” from The Orphan’s Tale: In the Cities of Coin and Spice

“You see, the future is a kind of stew, a soup, a vichyssoise of the present and the past. That’s how you get the future: You mix up everything you did today with everything you did yesterday and all the days before and everything anyone you ever met did and anyone they ever met too. And salt and lizard and pearl and umbrellas and typewriters and a lot of other things I’m not at liberty to tell you, because I took vows, and a witch’s vows have teeth.” – from The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of her Own Making.

Beautiful.

The two The Orphan’s Tales books are like intricate puzzle boxes; each story opening up into another and another and another, with characters and events intertwining in complex and dazzling ways while somehow managing to stay distinct and clear. At the end of the second book, I had the thought that she achieved what How I Met Your Mother has tried  (and not accomplished) to do- to tell the whole diverse, intersecting, digressing, intertwining history of a group of people that leads, finally, beautifully, devastatingly, to the event they seem to be conjured to create.

I could go on and on. Really, I could. I could just copy out whole passages from any of the books, the sentences are just luscious.

Cats: Like I said above, I’ve wanted to see this musical since I was 10 years old, which was right around the same time I decided I wanted to dance, and later I practiced to the soundtrack and dreamed of dancing in Cats on Broadway. So finally seeing it was a bit emotionally loaded. Plus the music is totally musically manipulative. So yes, I will admit to tearing up a little. I realized, watching it, that the whole thing, including the choreography is copywritten, and so the choreography is the same as it was in the 80s, and that shows. It’s lovely as a period piece, but what was subtly sexy in the 80s reads as cheesy now, but not cheesy enough to be camp. And I don’t think Cats should be camp anyway.  But I’d love to see someone rechoreograph it, something more along these lines. I think Wade Robson would be perfect for it, in fact (not that he choreographed  the dance in that video)- universe, can you get on that please?

Tangled: We finally saw this, and it was really cute. I appreciate that they made Rapunzel a strong character, but fallible at the same time.

Cars 2: The girls got this for Christmas, though Z saw it in the theater. While I realize that they were trying to make a completely different kind of movie than the first Cars, I found it interesting that they didn’t pay attention to the lesson of the first film- that sometimes you need to slow down. It was just so fast, so go go go go go- the girls didn’t follow half of the story, and the parts that I thought worked the best were the snippets with the core characters being themselves- like the scene in Italy with Luigi’s family. That being said, they enjoyed it, and it was clever. Anyway, that’s my critique.

Sherlock Holmes 2: LOVED it. I’ve realized that I would watch Robert Downey Jr. and Jude Law do just about anything so long as they did the Sherlock/Watson shtick. Read the phonebook? There. Drink tea? Absolutely. Juggle? Yes. Basket weave underwater? If only.

I don’t really have any more random thoughts. I’m glad that school will be starting up again at the end of the week, not having a schedule the last couple of weeks has really thrown me off. I simultaneously had a million things to do, and nothing to do. So it will be nice to be back to knowing what and when needs to get done.

It’s officially a New Year. I hope it’s full of glorious, wonderful, joyful things for you. And for me too.

 

Book Roundup

Book Roundup

Every year since 2003 I’ve had a goal to read a certain number of books in the year and write about them here on this blog. When I started, and until 2007, that goal was 100 books a year. Then having a one year old, and then a two year old and a baby cut into my reading time, and the goal went down to 50. And that’s where it still is this year, and I just hit that goal, so I thought I’d do an end of the year book round up, though I’ll probably finish at least one or two more before the year is actually over.

So, here’s what I read, my top 5 in bold. Rereads (with an R after them) aren’t eligible to be bolded, but assume that if I reread them it’s because I love them.:

Planning Your Charlotte Mason Education – Sonya Schafer

Work Suspended by Evelyn Waugh

Heidi- Johanna Spyri

Momfulness: Mothering with Mindfulness, Compassion, and Grace by Denise Roy

Time Out for Parents by Cheri Huber and Melinda Guyol

There is nothing wrong with you- Cheri Huber (R)

Family Math for Young Children

A Charlotte Mason Companion- Karen Andreola (R)

The Continuous Atonement- Brad Wilcox

A Moveable Feast- Ernest  Hemingway (R)

Bossypants- Tiny Fey

To the Rescue: The Biography of Thomas S. Monson- Heidi S. Swinton

Deadwind Sea-Joshua Wagner

Sum: Forty tales from the Afterlives – David Eagleman (R)

I was Someone Dead- Jamie S. Rich (R)

Soft Spoken Parenting: 50 Ways Not to Lose your Temper with your Kids. – H. Wallace Goddard

James and the Giant Peach- Roald Dahl (R)

TumTum and Nutmeg: Adventures outside of Nutmouse Hall

The Life of Pi – Yann Martel (R)

Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children – Ransom Riggs

The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of her Own Making- Cat Valente

TumTum and Nutmeg: The Rose Cottage Adventures

Oscar Wilde and the Vampire Murders- Gyles Brandreth

Charlotte Mason Education- Catherine Levinson (R)

Book Crush- Nancy Pearl

Books Children Love-

The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Society

More Charlotte Mason Education- Catherine Levinson

Heathers – John Bowie

An Ideal Husband- Oscar Wilde (R)

The Imperfectionists- Tom Rachman

Book of Mormon (R)

Sweetness at the Bottom of the Pie- Alan Bradley

Othello- Shakespeare (R)

The Weed that Strings the Hangmans bag- Alan Bradley

A Red Herring without Mustard- Alan Bradley

The Sweet Life in Paris – David Lebovitz

Macbeth- Shakespeare

Two Gentlemen of Verona- Shakespeare (R)

The Year of Magical Thinking- Joan Didion

Playful Learning- Mariah Bruehl

Brideshead Revisited- Evelyn Waugh (R)

The Night Circus- Erin Morgenstern

Thief- Megan Whalen Turner

I am Half sick of Shadows- Alan Bradley

The Lover’s Dictionary- David Levithan

Break the Glass- Jean Valentine

The Girl Who ruled Fairyland for a Short Time- Cat Valente

Voltaire’s Calligrapher- Pablo de Santis

Dizzy in Your Eyes- Pat Mora

Lots of parenting/education books, a decent showing of murder mysteries, an equally fair showing for gorgeous fantastical novels. More non-fiction than last year, but under my average.

Over all the year was a great one for reading, there really wasn’t much I read that I didn’t thoroughly enjoy. The absolute finds of the year though were The Night Circus and Cat Valente’s books. I honestly don’t have words for how much I love those books. Simply and completely magical, and the writing- the words- oh, I just want to curl up in those words and live there forever. Oh, and the Flavia de Luce mysteries by Alan Bradley; they’re like delicious, addicting candy. I just want to eat and eat and eat until it makes me sick.

Now we’ll see if I finish The Orphan’s Tales:In the Night Garden by Cat Valente, and The Eyre Affair by Jasper Fforde, and Blue Nights by Joan Didion before the end of the year.

What was the best book you read this year?

 

What’s been going around here

What’s been going around here

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Things have been busy! Earlier this week was the culmination of lots of work- I finished a first draft of a 50,000 word novel for NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month, wherein crazy people attempt to write 50,000 word novels in a month), and held a craft fair (with some of my friends) that I had been crafting like crazy for in the preceding weeks.  Then there’s school and there was Halloween, so much goodness! Would you like to see?

Halloween goodness. Rapunzel and Belle (or, more accurately, Cinderella in a yellow dress)

Z pretending to fly a real Boeing 747 at the Hiller Aviation Museum.

A dirigible (squee!!!!) at the Hiller Aviation Museum. I LOVE dirigibles!

We “mummified” an apple with salt and baking soda. That was fun.

Things I made for the craft sale (or for friends, or for my kids or nephews. Pretty much just stuff I made):

For my darling Ana and her miracle baby boy.

Felt wreath. I love how this turned out!

Little foxes. I have about 6 more of these to make now- 3 for a friend’s kids, 2 for my own kids, and 1 for me!

Mini peeps! Love them! (That was both a command and an expression of my feeling toward them.)

Have I posted this before? I feel like I may have. It’s a quilt I made for Tiny, with my virtual quilting bee friends. I sent out the fabric, they sent back sewn squares, and I sewed it all together.

More dollies for the craft sale.

Throwing stars for the craft sale. Filled with rice, you throw them and the ribbons trail behind.

Harry Potter pillows for my nephews’ Harry Potter room. My sister redid their room for their birthday, and these were on their beds. (The room is insanely awesome.)

Also for their room- their own Gryffindor scarves.

What the trees look like around here. So pretty!

New bird ornaments for my Christmas tree.

The girls met Santa!

And last but not least,

Tiny is tough. In case you were wondering. :)

There are also a number of projects that I can’t post yet because they’re for Christmas presents, but I’ll post them after Christmas, because I’m happy with how they turned out.  I’ve been keeping track of everything I’ve made this year, and I’m currently at 121 things made. That’s kind of crazy. :)

Anyway, I should maybe possibly be posting more, now that the craziness of last month is over. We’ll see.  But I’ve missed you!

The aquarium, or, how to feel like a genius photographer

The aquarium, or, how to feel like a genius photographer

We went to the Monterey Bay aquarium today. It was incredibly fun, and incredibly long. Goodness sakes, we were gone all day. Lots of driving, lots of looking, lots of walking, just lots.

Luckily I took B’s schnazzy camera with us, and the fish cooperated. (For the most part.)

But seriously. Do you want to feel like a genius photographer? Just go take pictures of jellyfish. As long as you can focus, you’re golden. (Click on any of the pictures to make them bigger.)

(It’s Nemo!)

Can you find the seahorse?

A leafy sea dragon!

It was a wonderful day, filled with some of my most loved people, and the beauty of the ocean. It doesn’t get much better than that.

At this moment

At this moment

It’s 7:57 am. I’ve been up since 6:30. The girls have been up since 7 and 7:18. At least one of them should still be asleep- possibly both of them. Whining abounds. Mozart for Morning Coffee is playing over the speakers. Mozart helps.

The girls are playing Cootie, a game that in my youth always proved to be far more appealing in theory than in practice. The girls have been slightly more successful with it than my siblings and I were, but there’s still fussing and frustration. Like right now. Bless Zo, she’s doing her best to pacify the wild beast that is Tiny this morning. They’ve now moved on to just putting the bugs’ heads together and playing with them.

Speaking of bugs, I had a crazy dream last night about an enormous spider that could contract and make itself smaller and then expand again and be huge. I managed to grab it and throw it in the toilet. One of its legs pinched me as I threw it, and I woke up before I learned if that was bad in any way.

My nails are the perfect shade of OPI gray. They are helping me face my day, which is packed. I have to clean my house, do Z’s school, host preschool, run out and get lined paper and milk, prep for my first tutoring session (I’m tutoring a little girl in writing- I’m excited and nervous), actually have the first tutoring session, and make sure everyone eats and lives through the day.  My gray nails and I can do it.

It’s also supposed to rain today, which makes me really happy.

Over the course of the weekend, I stumbled into plans to make 6 quilts by the end of the year. Yowsa. They should be fun though. Most of them I can’t talk about because people will be getting them. But they’ll be cool. Trust me.

The beasties are demanding breakfast, so I must go feed them. But before I do, one of my most beloved friends is in labor this morning. Pray for her and her baby boy, would you? Thank you!

What’s going on at your house at this moment?

What a day!

What a day!

Most days I’m pleased with our decision to home school. Then there are days like today, when I can see why there wasn’t really another option for us. Every single thing today just lined up with what we’re working on, what we’re going to be working on- it was magic.

First we went to open gym at the place that the girls take dance and gymnastics.

Tiny wasn’t really grumpy the whole time, but this picture cracked me up.

She got to try out the equipment (since she takes dance and Z takes gym, she hasn’t had a chance to try it out yet.)

 

Z got to practice being upside down.

And she tried out the beam for the first time. She even hopped on it! (Well, on the lower one. But still!)

Tiny stuck with the lower beam.

Then we had the amazing opportunity to meet Kerri Strug, 1996 gold medal olympian. Her story is so inspiring, it totally made me cry as I was trying to explain to Zo what she had done during her vault. (If you don’t know, watch this.) Z’s been struggling recently with feeling that if she makes a mistake that she’s not good at that thing- and to see Kerri fall and then get back up and win the gold was a big eye opener to her. More immediately, Z’s been frustrated that she’s not instantly good at cartwheels, and she got the chance to ask Kerri how long it took her to learn how to do them. I think Kerri’s answer of a year was a bit of a surprise to Miss Z, and she’s feeling better now about it taking her more than one try.

Tiny thought she was nice too.

Then we went to the Children’s Discovery Museum, where everything was about mammoths and paleontology and cave drawings- everything we’ll be talking about in history over the next couple of weeks. Serious jackpot.

I love Tiny’s weird spider straddle a she tries to get to some bones.

Zoe’s cave drawing, using charcoal and clay.

It’s a squirrel.

And here’s one more feisty face, just to round out the post.

Overall it was just such a lovely day, so full of fun and honest to goodness educational experiences. Made me feel like I’m doing something right.

The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion

The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion

My dear friend Brandy has been suggesting this book to me for years now, and while I’ve even suggested it to others, I hadn’t picked it up. It’s not that I don’t trust Brandy’s taste in books, but more that I know her taste, and while it is spectacular and discerning, it also more open to sadness and grief than mine usually is. But when she brought this book up to me again recently, I decided that it was time to take the plunge.

I should mention that I’m surprisingly superstitious. When I was younger I read Piers Anthony’s Incarnations of Immortality series, and at the back of each there was an author’s note where he discussed the process of writing the book. A reoccurring theme of these essays was that whatever topic he was writing on (time, death, war, birth) seemed to manifest itself more during the writing of the book, almost as if he were drawing it to himself by writing.  This has stuck with me like you wouldn’t believe.  Not only do I shy away from writing about certain subjects for fear of invoking them (I have a great “child vanishing” story in my head that will never be written), but I find that I avoid reading about them too.

So reading this book was extraordinarily uncomfortable. It’s Didion’s memoir of the year after her husband’s sudden death, during which time she was not only trying to come to terms with his death, her loss, her grief, her memories, but also the  life threatening illness of her daughter. (I found out today that her daughter died after she published the book, which is just gutting.)  Her writing is so honest, so raw, that it cuts through any mental barriers you may have up and gets straight to your heart.

I have a hard time with grief, specifically other people’s. I don’t know what to do with it. As I heard it put, I tend to go straight for the “comfort those who stand in need of comfort ” instead of “mourn with those who mourn”. (They weren’t saying that about me, but about the concept- you know what I mean.)  People who are grieving don’t always need comforting, but them feeling better would make me feel better, so that’s what I’ve tended to go with, and I fear that in the past that’s been harmful.

One of the reasons I don’t know what to do with others grief is because I’m scared of it. I don’t want to go there, don’t want to admit those things that Didion manages to sneak right past those barriers: we are not in control, bad news comes to everyone, tragedy strikes on ordinary days. (It seems fitting that I’m writing this on 9/11.)

So what do we do with that knowledge? Obsessively check on our kids in their sleep to make sure they’re still breathing? Push it to the back of our minds and move on, blissfully unaware? Something in the middle? That’s a question I’m still grappling with, but I’m grateful that this book got me thinking about it.

At this moment

At this moment

It’s 7:09 am.

There is a bird twittering outside my window. 3 notes, middle, up, middle, down, over and over. I can see blue sky behind clouds out the window, and I’m guessing he’s happy about that.

I’m the only one awake, though I’m predicting that Z will be up any minute. I was up late last night, (I LOVE getting together with amazing groups of women, don’t you?) but I still tumbled myself out of bed at 6:42 so I could shower and be dressed when Z gets up. I’d like to get back in the pattern of getting up at 6 so that I can workout and shower before she’s up, but my body hasn’t been waking me up at 6, and that’s my alarm clock.  But regardless of the workout, I’ve noticed that there is a marked difference in our day if I’m up and moving before the girls. It gives me time to get some things done, but more than that, it seems to give Z … something. Not sure what, but her whole attitude is better if she finds me up and doing things when she gets up.

We’re heading to Santa Cruz today. There should be no babies to make us turn around this time, and we’re off to meet with our Educational Specialist from the charter school we’re working with. There’s the added perk that she’s one of my most beloved college roommates, so that will be quite fun. And we’re going to see Papa Joe and hit the Natural History Museum, so all in all it should be a great day.

I have a pile of fabric triangles waiting to be sewn up into a banner on my craft table, and a littering of books spread around that want to be read. I must prevail and start on my book club book, (The Scarlet Pimpernel, it should be good!), but I keep getting waylaid by Shakespeare. He’s just like candy to me. Over the last couple of days I’ve read The Tempest (which I’ve never read before and was completely surprised by, I’ve always been under the assumption that it was a tragedy, and it’s not) and Two Gentlemen of Verona (which I’ve read before and highly enjoy, even if one of the characters makes me stabby, but that’s kind of his job). I’ve wanted to see the new Helen Mirren version of The Tempest, so now I can. But first I must read The Scarlet Pimpernel.

I think I’m going to go get some sewing done before the day starts, and hopefully I’ll have an Eiffel Tower of Paris banner to show for it soon.

But,  just because I feel like this post should have a picture in it, Tiny would like you to know that the thing that you are looking for, your very heart’s desire, is over there.


What are you doing at this moment?